Touring and Live Shows

Playing live is the ultimate drug for a lot of musicians, and it's the ultimate experience for so many fans out there.  It's also a huge part of the metal scene in particular, and is the foundation of a lot of bands' existence.  It's what many of us live for.

But for some of us, it's just not really possible, or we're not really all that thrilled about it...or both.

I don't tour or play live, and I probably never will with Agony By Default.  There are a few reasons for this:

1) It's not feasible for me from a financial or scheduling perspective.

I am a father, a local small business owner, a busy man, and I'm not exactly rich to boot.  Touring takes a huge amount of time and resources that I simply cannot dedicate at this point in my life.  Agony By Default is a very important part of who I am...but it alone does not define me, and I have other interests...and more importantly, responsibilities...that I take very seriously.  I just can't dedicate the time or money to touring, especially when touring doesn't make a whole lot of money (and often loses money) and pulls me away from my family.

2)  I don't want to.

I'm simply not as big of a fan of playing live or touring in general as some musicians are.  It's a royal pain in the ass with often a lot of logistics involved, it takes time and money away from shit I'd rather be doing, and frankly, it requires dealing with people..which I'm not a huge fan of, either (and, to be entirely honest, am not always good at).

3) I don't need to.

I don't feel like my music has to be played live to be validated.  It exists, as is, for my enjoyment and the fans' enjoyment, and I would hope that it speaks for itself.  It's enjoyable for me to make music, and I'm content with that.  I have a "normal", steady income from other sources (that I'm not willing to sacrifice for a shittier- or non-paying live gig or tour), and I have plenty of other hobbies and interests to fill my time.  There's a reason I now do solo/studio projects.  It's simply what I prefer, and I don't need to play live to find enjoyment in my music or to promote/spread it.

4) One-man studio projects are a difficult live gig.

It's very difficult to pull off a one-man show successfully in metal, which is traditionally a "band" type of deal.  There are some who can pull it off (Putrid Pile, Everdying) and many more who can't.  For me, it's just weird and I'd rather just not.

Of course, the way around this is to just use a band for hire, but that costs money (and takes time, effort, patience, and a whole lot of other things that simply aren't worth it to me, for reasons 1 through 3).

In the end, there's just not enough reasons or motivating factors for me to play live at all, let alone go on a full tour....and there's a whole lot of reasons why I can't, and why I don't want to.

Having said that, I want to stress that I have nothing but incredible amounts of respect for those who do put themselves out there, night after night, and put up with all the bullshit, take all the risks, and put forth the physical, mental, and financial effort to get out there and a) do what they love, and b) give the fans what they want.  It's just not for me, and isn't possible for Agony By Default.